My views on cheating are that it’s a malicious and selfish act. Though I cant excuse myself from the table. To tell everyone who doesn’t know the truth, I have cheated before. I cheated a lot. And then I got cheated on by someone I really did care about for once. And believe me, it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. And now that I think about it, I was so selfish. Because not once did I stop to think about how my boyfriend at the time was going to feel if he ever found out I was being unfaithful.

I didn’t think about that until I was in his shoes, as I was the one being played for a fool. And believe me, I have never felt like lower scum in my entire life when I realized how wrong what I was doing was. You may be thinking, “Tayla, how could you do it? How can you be that girl?” Well, I did it for thrill. I also did it for the attention. The thought of doing something you think you wont get caught for is exhilarating. It gets your heart racing, blood pumping. But then when I came back to the person I cheated on, I saw so much hope in his eyes for me. As if being faithful was asking too much.

When I say I did it for the attention, I meant that before, I realized how much of a child I was being, I needed to know I was needed. That I wasn’t ugly. Having more than one guy want to be with me, as embarrassing as it sounds, made me feel beautiful. It made me feel accepted and wanted.

At the time I thought it was all natural. Every girl wants to feel wanted, right?

The only think I learned out of this whole entire ordeal is in the end, karma sucks.Because I got everything I put out, thrown right back in my face x100.And now I’ve learned. If you cheat, then you need to learn as well. Before your perfect little life filled with deceit comes crashing down.
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